Friday, November 21, 2008

I am obsessed with my hair right now. I have been toying with the idea of going natural for several years now. Maybe since high school. But I have never been able to figure out what to do with my hair.

But now, the skies have parted, a rainbow has appeared, and I have discovered a whole community of people writing, obsessing about black hair. White people may not understand but this is HUGE! There is NOTHING in mainstream media about black hair, except how to get it straight and silky.

Once again, another reason why the internet is great.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Self Improvement

I am all about improving myself and my life and becoming a more efficient, happier person.

Things I Want to Do/Be
-More connected to what I'm doing
-Thankful for what I have, the person that who I am
-Not put off for tomorrow what I can do today
-Watch less tv
-Maintain a calm mind
-Challenge my mind
-FOCUS. I can't watch tv unless I'm on the internet. I can't focus on just one website, gotta have more windows open. I feel jittery like I have add!

What I WILL Do
-Focus on one thing at a time.
-Write a bit every day (I will begin with at least 15 minutes)
-Remember to breathe
-Do little, inexpensive things to take care of myself
-Be dilligant over my thoughts.

There is so much more, of course, but these are what I will think on right now

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

I realized today that when I am screaming at you, I'm screaming at myself.
I realized that when I said I hated you, I was saying that I hate myself.
I am not happy sometimes, it's true. There are dark corners in my mind and sometimes the shadows get longer, cover more space.
I'm sorry. I wish I liked myself more.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

It's been a tearful, breathless, happy day.

Obama rally on Monday, Obama win on Tuesday.

I have never been so happy to be tired. I have never been so happy to be African American. What a great day to be alive