what have I been feeling:
I have been feeling...ok. That is, I think I'm coming to terms with the whole life thing. I mean, things will never ever be perfect and that's ok. I recently took a trip to St. Thomas which was probably the best vacation I've ever had, and still, that wasn't perfect. Which is fine. During the parts that sucked, I just said to myself 'This will be over, just like everything. Just bear it and probably something more fun will happen next.' And sure enough, it was, and it did and everything was lovely.
Also, I'm learning to get over hatred of my own voice (well, my writing voice). I'm not going to stop writing just because an asshole lives in my brain.
Adding to my zeniness, two people I know died after suffering for some time. People die. Life is 'whatever' and then it's done. There are good things, there are bad things, there are horrible things, and then....something. The end?
yes, the end.