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Here's where I am right now.

1. I'm pushing myself through. I'm slowly (sometimes too slowly) making myself be a responsible adult when I don't want to. Physically, I feel sick. Mentally, I feel dull. Eating small meals frequently sometimes helps with the nausea. Pushing things around the house in a half-assed attempt at cleaning makes me feel like I wasn't put on this earth just to take up space.

2. It's hot. August is summer's raggedy remains. I'm ready for fall.

Lethargy

Sometimes I feel like I want to be bored. I have been going through some major things (of which I will write about later) and my response to these big, swift changes has been to stop and become very inactive.

Lying around in bed satisfies an immediate need, but deep in the back of my brain, something is unhappy and begins to feel very, very sorry for myself and my life and all the blessings that I've been given.

So that's where I am right now. Peeling away layers of a way of living that I find inadequate and dangerous.